life is a game…
The world doesn't explicitly tell you to live in fear—it shows you how.
From a young age, I was labeled “too sensitive.” I remember clenching up on the couch while my family watched the nightly news. Every headline was drenched in tragedy, violence, or scarcity. I’d sit quietly, absorbing it all, wondering, “Why does the world feel so cruel?” Nothing positive ever came through that screen. And without knowing it, I began to internalize a dangerous message: you are not safe here. No one said it out loud, but I was being trained—trained to expect danger, to feel small, to fear the unknown, and to accept powerlessness. That’s how the programming begins.
By my teenage years, I carried an invisible heaviness. A quiet sadness followed me. I felt out of place, like my heart was too wide open in a world that had shut down. I didn’t know I was a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP). I just thought something was wrong with me. But sensitivity was never my weakness—it was my gift. I just didn’t know how to use it. I couldn’t ignore the suffering around me. I couldn’t watch the world numb itself and not feel it in my chest. I had empathy, but no tools. Intuition, but no validation. I was awake in a world that kept telling me to go back to sleep.
I was also raised Christian. In that environment, questioning was not encouraged. You were taught to believe, not to seek. “The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away.” “Just have faith.” I had questions—big ones. Is the God we’re worshipping loving or punishing? Are these Bible stories metaphors or literal truth? If God is love, why are we taught to fear Him?But every time I asked, I was shut down. “Don’t question God.” “That’s blasphemy.” “Just pray.” And so I learned to silence my intuition and call it obedience. But deep inside, something kept tugging at me: this isn’t the whole truth.
What I now understand is this: we are born into systems designed to keep us small. We’re taught to obey, not to think. To fear, not to feel. We’re told that life is a battle we must survive—when in reality, life is a game of energy, perception, and spiritual remembrance. Everything changed when I realized the rules I had been living by weren’t real. The fear, the shame, the guilt—it was all part of the matrix of control that keeps people disconnected from their power. We’re not here to suffer endlessly. We’re here to remember who we are: divine creators, energetic beings here to evolve, expand, and experience joy.
Life is not a battle. It is not fixed, linear, or set in stone. It’s not even fully “real” in the way we’re taught—it is a mirror, a projection, shaped by our beliefs, energy, and inner state. Heaven and hell aren’t destinations we go to after we die. They are states of consciousness we move through while we are alive. When we live in fear, shame, or limitation, we live in a kind of hell. But when we live in love, presence, and inner truth, we create heaven on Earth. The spiritual path isn’t supposed to be easy all the time—it’s messy, beautiful, and full of both destruction and rebirth. But every hard moment is an invitation to become more authentic. More soul-led. More you.
